Yesterday was my first full day away from my little boy. It was intense but I knew all along he was in good hands. I did cheat and got to see him during my lunch break :) Today was a little easier, but I still had a trillion things running through my head, like "what if?" or "did you remember to tell her?" and so on and so on. It should only get better though.
Work was what I expected after returning a month later. Sales reps can be the devil! I love what I do and I can actually say I like the people I work with (when we are out of work atmosphere) but they can just be "butts" most of the time. It's been almost nine years and I'm thinking it's about time to make a switch. With the economy the way it is, it definitely scares me to even think about making a move. With us paying daycare now, we hardly have enough money left over to feed our mouths or even to put gas in our cars. Times are getting tough, but I'm praying that they will get better for us.
Grayson has been doing really well the past couple of days. We started giving him some medicine to help him cope with his gas / fussiness. It seems to be working like a Pro. It hurts sometimes to not be able to make him feel comfortable in his own little body right now. When he feels it, he just screams & screams! Saturday I had my first melt down because I could not do anything to help him. Almost 1 1/2 hours passed and I just broke down crying calling Kernie to come home to the rescue. I felt ashamed because it made me feel like I was failing as a mother already. Realistically I know it's not my fault, but I still can't help but think it / feel it sometimes. I want to be that SUPER MOM! :~) Sunday, he stayed the afternoon with Grammie & PaPa Ray so that I could get some "me time" and also accomplish some tasks that had been neglected for like four weeks around the house. It's definitely good to have Grammie close by.
Well, the hubby is downstairs cooking dinner and it smells yummy! I will wrap it up for tonight and I will also hopefully try to post more often these days. Sorry for the delay everyone!
Have a good night!
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Super Moms phased out with people like Grandma Vick & my uncle Tom's mom, Mrs. Di Nardo! There will be lots of times when you don't know what to do . . . like when they are in kindergarten and you don't understand why they don't understand something! Take it all in stride and it will be okay. Sometimes, babies just cry and that's all we can let them do. I remember letting Zach sit in my arms and just cry for what seem like forever until we both fell asleep. He's five and still kicking! Don't forget I'm close too! I know Grammie gets first priority, but if she's ever busy! :-)
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